The Love of Calvary

A Poem:

What do you mean when you say you love me?
Am I really worth that much to you?
I am thirsty, and I am weak.
Will we fly together?  I want to.
Please pick me up.  Take me with you, please.
You are everything I want…

What have they done to you?
Pale, bleeding, hanging there, most beautiful one
Pierced, crushed and heartbroken
You cry out in agony, “I LOVE YOU!”
Torn, shredded, naked flesh, dripping beautiful blood
You see me and smile.

A Prayer:

How precious Your love is, oh my God.  I thank You for your sacrifice.  Let me never forget, that You love me THAT much.  You endured all the pain that I deserved.  You took me from the mire and made me a man.  You deserve all my worship, all my life, all my everything.  You know, I don’t even know what my “everything” even is.  But you do.  Show me how to be the mighty warrior you’ve called me to be.  Amen.

“Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.  Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.”–Hebrews 12:2-3

Inventory

You know, sometimes you need to ask yourself the tough questions.  Where am I?  What am I doing?  Where should I go from here, and is what I’m doing now leading me in the right direction?

I try to be introspective, making sure I’m not in some sin or something, but when it comes to life goals… I don’t think I even have any.  What is my “calling”?  I have no idea.  Do I even want to know?  I don’t know.  I’ve made a point to “live in the moment,” which is good.  Don’t worry about tomorrow, right?  The thing is, though, I’m pretty sure I’m missing the big picture.  Like, who am I really?  I know I belong to God, I’m His son.  I’m created to worship Him, to love.  But still, what does that look like in real life?

I think I’m in a rut.  It feels like I’m striving for nothing.  The things I’m doing right now are great; I enjoy them.  I’ve been able to minister to people, help others and grow closer to God.  And I think I need a change.  I need to obey God.  But what does He want me to do?

Maybe I already know, but I’ve been ignoring it.

“Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.”–Proverbs 3:5-6