With a Broken and Joyous Heart

Why am I lying here immobilized?  Because when you revealed your face to me, it hit me like a speeding train.  I was sent flying backwards, carried into eternity, bone to metal.  I faded away into death, but not darkness.  It was a most beautiful light that enveloped me.  My spirit was torn apart at the seams as my soul moved too fast for my nature.

Now I’m here, in this place, with you.  I can’t stand due to the weight of the glory.  But look now: tiny roots, growing from the pores of my skin, sinking into the sacred earth beneath me.  They drink in the holy water of life, strengthening me with the nutrients of the Kingdom.  I can stand now; I’m alive; I am new.  Your blood pumps through my arteries, and I am indestructible.

As I open my eyes, I find I am back again, kneeling in the back row, sleeves soaked in tears.  I wonder, what have you done to me?  My problems haven’t gone away.  Although, I suppose you will be dealing with them now.  I can’t give up anymore.  I think I left my free will in that pool of tears.  Did I just die?  Or did I just now become alive?  I guess both.  Here is something amazing.  I think, I can love now.

“The wind blows where it wishes, and you hear its sound, but you do not know where it comes from or where it goes. So it is with everyone who is born of the Spirit.”–John 3:8

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