You know, sometimes you need to ask yourself the tough questions. Where am I? What am I doing? Where should I go from here, and is what I’m doing now leading me in the right direction?
I try to be introspective, making sure I’m not in some sin or something, but when it comes to life goals… I don’t think I even have any. What is my “calling”? I have no idea. Do I even want to know? I don’t know. I’ve made a point to “live in the moment,” which is good. Don’t worry about tomorrow, right? The thing is, though, I’m pretty sure I’m missing the big picture. Like, who am I really? I know I belong to God, I’m His son. I’m created to worship Him, to love. But still, what does that look like in real life?
I think I’m in a rut. It feels like I’m striving for nothing. The things I’m doing right now are great; I enjoy them. I’ve been able to minister to people, help others and grow closer to God. And I think I need a change. I need to obey God. But what does He want me to do?
Maybe I already know, but I’ve been ignoring it.
“Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.”–Proverbs 3:5-6