“When you ask for testing, expect to be tested. Also expect more grace.”
The Bible has a lot to say about money. Up until recently, I hadn’t really worried about it too much. It’s strange to think about how I actually had more money to throw around when I was in college than I do now, but it’s true. Now I have a car payment, much higher rent, income taxes, health insurance and retirement plans. I’m not complaining, just stating the facts that my life situation has changed(seriously though, retirement? I’m only twenty-two!). Anyway, because the Bible has so much to say about money, I want to live my life in accordance with its teachings. First of all, that means not loving money. While I’m sure there are others that love money more than I do, I can’t make comparisons like that. I desire to love God with all my heart, so that means money should have none of it. I pray that the love of money would have absolutely no place in my life.
I’ll tell you a story. This past December, I bought a used car and traded in my old one. When the temporary registration was up, I drove over to the MVA to get a permanent one. What awaited me there was a fine of $150 for unverified insurance. They fined me for my old car, the one I had traded in a month before. “Okay,” I thought, “I’ll just tell them the truth. Of course I canceled the insurance on a car I didn’t own. How could they fine me for that?” They didn’t budge. Oh, but wait! I had the buyer’s order. It had the evidence of the trade-in. Ah, but the VIN number wasn’t on there, so it didn’t count. Unfortunately, my paperwork came up short, so I was forced to pay the fine.
Let me tell you, I was mad. I honestly can’t remember a time when I was more angry. I was livid. I was beside myself with raging self-pity, not directed at anyone in particular, but towards the system, the bureaucracy, the world! I felt twisted up inside.
Then He hit me with a peace that passes understanding. “Let not the sun go down on your anger,” He said. “Give to Caesar what is Caesar’s, and to God what is God’s.” I was humbled when He brought to my remembrance His unfailing love. Nothing, let alone a measly $150, will ever cause His love to fail. If I ever need that $150, I am certain that He will supply it, for He supplies all my needs.
This and other recent tests have served to strengthen my faith. I fail some, probably most of them. Nevertheless, they make me run to God. Next time I will be stronger, because I will be more dependent on His grace.
“But he knows the way that I take;
when he has tried me, I shall come out as gold.”—Job 23:10